
We won’t meet
In empty streets
We’ll meet in a crowded place
Surrounded by a strangers face.
A speck of dust with your name
Disappeared in the rain
I kissed your memory goodbye.
And I watch
As my love disappears from your eyes
Once again.
The times we’ve gone to bed together. Two bodies and maybe nothing more. My soul leaves me.Like it is unable to take part in an act where my body betrays every other part of me. But I still do it. I leave my emotions somewhere else in the room. A physical act that brings me nowhere closer to loving her. Is that the reason it is done? Maybe we both require something different. She needs to please me. I need to please myself. But only in that moment. Every other moment of my life I signed away to please someone else. I must be allowed that one moment, right? It’s not love making then? I don’t make love to my wife. I shag her. Fuck her. Do her. It’s mundane. Mundane sex. Mechanical. Passionless. A chore that’s got to be done.